Working Adult Life

Assalamualaikum,

Dah lama rasanya tak update, busy manjang. Pejam celik dah setahun aku tinggalkan dunia degree, woah cepat sungguh. Of course aku rindukan kawan-kawan, lecturer dan kehidupan aku dekat Kedah walaupun penuh liku-liku. Tapi itu semua pengalaman yang tak ternilai.

Hampir 8 bulan juga la aku dah berkerja sepenuh masa sebagai Application Developer. Walaupun it is not my dream job, but syukur alhamdulillah aku belajar banyaaaak sangat. Ilmu  masih lagi dituntut walaupun dialam perkerjaan. Being a programmer, I would say very challenging. Like I said, it is not my dream job so I have to work harder. Masa first day masuk kerja, macam-macam rasa ada such as takut pengalaman masa praktikal dulu berulang kembali la, teruja sebab dah ada kerja baru la, risau dengan environment kerja la, janggal sebagai orang baru dalam company la, dan macam2 lagi.

Walaupun company aku kerja sekarang ramai chinese, team work aku pun ramai chinese, but nak minta tolong apa-apa semua senang, so cepat la jugak aku adapt dengan environment kerja sini. Berlainan sungguh dengan company waktu praktikal dulu, taknak la cerita benda yang dah lepas haha. Cuma satu je la yang aku tak berapa nak tahan, cafeteria dia mahal nak mampus! sangat la tak biasa bila dah duduk Kedah 2 tahun setengah dan terbiasa dengan makanan murah2 hehe.

So far being a working adult gave me something to appreciate such as money and time. What I meant with money is not how we spend it, but how manageable are we in terms of spending and saving. Time with my loved one also has been limited since work, I'll make sure to appreciate time with my family whenever I'm at home especially during Ramadhan and hari raya. Be sure to make your loved one happy with those earn, Insyaallah Allah permudahkan rezeki. Fullstop.

Dear Ex.

Dear ex,

Right at this moment, I knew you are far away from where I am right now. I hope you’re fine with your life, although I can imagine you struggling finishing your design, assignments and so on.. “Macam mana la awak hidup dekat sana dengan cuaca sejuk, and dengan awak resdung pulak lagi. Mesti susah kan memula nak adapt?” I wish I knew your answer, but that’s not possible.

Now, approximately 9 months since we last met. Honestly, it’s a struggle for me, it was not easy. Not because you are not mine anymore, but because I lost the most understandable-kind-of-person. You really are the best person/friend/buddy I ever met, who knew me inside out. I find it impossible to stop caring. I’m sorry we can’t be friends in normal ways as you requested on the day we last met. I wish until today you are still the best buddy. But my heart won’t allow it. It still hurts. Still need times to heal completely :’) Almost every stuffs that related to you I have deleted/thrown/gave to you on the last day we met. Including the birthday ring that I most adore since 2008.. But I still can’t throw all the memories, your face, your comfort words, your laughs etc.

I have started a new life btw, and I'm happy, I hope you too. InsyaAllah. :)